20100728
A plaintive cry.
That's what I woke up to around 0330 this morning. As I sat there in my hammock, wondering what I heard, wondering if it was the tail end of a dream or if the tail end of the dream merely incorporated what I heard, I heard it again.
Meeeeoooeoeoeoeow.
Yeap. That's what I thought I heard. The cat had been quite used to jumping in and out of my window and, this morning, remembered the habit she dropped a couple months ago. Did I want to get out of bed to let the cat in. Nooooo. But, in my delirium, Scripture (*namely Proverbs 12:10 and Luke 11:8) immediately entered my head. A man who wakes up with Truth being the first thing on his mind must be alright. I made up my mind that if she cried again, I would let her in.
Meeeoeoeoeeeeew.
So I let her in. Her body was all damp with dew. Must have just been lonely, because there was nothing else outside, and she had food and water. But this wasn't why I left a log, today. This is the prologue, the event that gave way to the bizarre dreams that followed.
Disturbed sleep has that effect on me, waking up with increasing frequency and increasingly odd (even stupid) dreams. I don't even remember the first one, but I woke up and prayed for Megan. The second one had me watching a girl outside my bedroom window draw all over our front yard with colored chalk. She didn't see me. I could make out some of the words, but not all, so I went outside to see better, when my dad and sister came out, too. I was glad when they didn't ask me if I knew who did all the chalking. I also went to pick up some green apples that just happened to be lying in the grass on the far side of the yard (by the highway) and was disgusted, upon examination, that fruit flies had already taken their toll on them. Upon waking up, I thought to myself, "That's not how (the pattern) fruit flies eat." I prayed for Rachel. In the third dream, I was looking outside the bathroom window, about to urinate, when I noticed that the Bradford pear trees were in bloom, again (for the second time this year). Except, this time, the blossoms were golden. I also noticed several very large passion flowers mingled between the maple and pear trees.
And boy did I wake up tired.
*Proverbs 12:10
A righteous man regards the life of his beast, but even the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel.
Luke 11:8
I tell you, although he will not get up and supply him anything because he is his friend, yet because of his shameless persistence and insistence he will get up and give him as much as he needs.
20100721
Shall the throne of iniquity have fellowship with You--they who frame and hide their unrighteous doings under law? (Psalms 94:20)
He will turn back upon them their own iniquity and will wipe them out by means of their own wickedness; the Lord our God will wipe them out. (Psalms 94:23)
20100717
There's more fish in the sea.
I'm not looking for a fish.
It's an expression.
Not an apt one. I want the ocean--and not for the fish. I want to wrap myself in it. I want to know it.
Would you settle for a mermaid?
20100709
If we really believed that God meant what He said--what should we be like! Dare I really let God be to me all that He says He will be? (http://myutmost.org/07/0709.html)
20100708
Jesus wiped His butt.
20100707

Am I American? Tonight, I am. A meat bowl--full of leftover hamburger, hotdog, and breakfast sausage.
20100630

Yeap, dad helped me weld that guitar stand. It probably won't win any beauty pageants, but it holds up my guitar.
20100628
Boy, did I meet a gorgeous creature in Gainesville. Wow. The Lord bless you, Gloria. Keep singing before Him.
20100625
On the road again. Going places that I've never been.
I'm coming for you Mattyyyyyy. I'm coming for YOU. Mua hahahahahahaha.
And I'm bringing a friend with me. :P
20100618
I typically don't consider the hole in my bagel. I carefully check the sides to make sure no melted peanut butter threatens escape after every bite. However, when I lift the bagel off my desk and notice the fresh glob left behind, I realize that there is, in fact, a hole in the center of my bagel.
20100614
It's always the little things that make life interesting. Like, just now, when I was choking on a piece of apple. In the course my my chewing, a piece slid uninvited down my throat and triggered the cough-hack-cough-cough-weeze-eyewater-cough mechanism. When the dust settled. I closed off my left notril with my finger like so, and breathed in quickly through my right nostril to dislodge the piece of apple that had managed to be thrown up into in my sinus cavities during all the commotion. Certainly an odd feeling.
20100613
If you turn away your foot from [traveling unduly on] the Sabbath, from doing your own pleasure on My holy day, and call the Sabbath a [spiritual] delight, the holy day of the Lord honorable, and honor Him and it, not going your own way or seeking or finding your own pleasure or speaking with your own [idle] words, then will you delight yourself in the Lord, and I will make you to ride on the high places of the earth, and I will feed you with the heritage [promised for you] of Jacob your father, for the mouth of the Lord has spoken it. (Isaiah 58:13-14 AMP)
This Scripture has been on my mind all day. Especially the "then will you delight yourself in the Lord" part. Why? Because of how it correlates with Psalms 37:4:
Delight yourself also in the Lord, and He will give you the desires and secret petitions of your heart.
I often hear this Scripture quoted without--I believe--a full apprehension of what delighting yourself in the Lord actually means--of what it requires. And how I'm not meeting it fully. Praise the Lord for correction. Praise the Lord.
20100611
It's really quite amazing what you can acquire when you really reach. I just put some clothes in the washing machine and, in looking for the detergent (mom's been prepping to redecorate; therefore, moving stuff around), I looked behind the dryer. In looking, I found some things to get out. And so, I laid on top of the dryer and reached, and reached, and reached (this continues for some time), and reached, and reached, and finally acquired what I had been aiming at. A couple of mom's bras. Mission complete. And my shirt got pretty dirty, too. There was probably a more efficient way to accomplish that, but then how'd I get this great story?
20100611
まじかよ!ジャシュアすごいね!!
Yes, ladies and gentlemen, that was said about me. :P
20100610
The wicked walk or prowl about on every side, as vileness is exalted [and basenes is rated high] among the sons of men. (Psalms 12:8 AMP)
20100610

Glad you like it.
20100610
Bugs amaze me. I just smashed this cockroach so that the only things left of his body that hadn't turned to paste was his head... and he still wiggled his antennas and mandibles at me. :)
20100604
Picture Day! Wheeeeee! :d

Enjoy the firework. Dad designed and made the sign (the pastor did some grinding).

Oil spill. I find the color quite pretty. Silver linings and all that.
A flower arrangement mom made from Jessica's leftover wedding flowers.
Mimosa. I really should have taken the picture when the blooms were still pink.
20100529
New
poem. Whee. :)
20100529
Went to a wedding, today. Not mine, of course. The Lord bless your marriage, Jason and Jessica. Praise the Lord.
20100529

You're not so bad yourself, library lady.
20100527
20100524
Happy birthday, mom. The Lord bless you.
20100524
Funny how often Egyptian mythology pervades fiction. Why? Because it's "old". Because we're trained from a very young age to believe that there's something intrinsically valuable about ancient man. We are lead on by delusions, fostering dreams that we should never hold. We are not taught the obvious--that man has changed remarkably little since the Lord created him. There was the fall of man, where he became susceptible to death because of sin, and there was the death and resurrection of the Lord Jesus Christ, which brought man back into relationship with God by which he *can* be saved (if he repents and believes that Jesus is Who He says He is and obeys Him). Other than that, man has remained the same. He is born, he matures (at least, physically), he forms relationships, he works, he dies. It was no different with the Egyptians. They woke up each morning to do their daily lives--the slaves to work, the peasants to work, the nobility to get fat, and the priests to serve demons. They lived a lie; there's nothing extra-special and fantasy-invoking about that. When it pleased the Lord to destroy them, they perished, and what remained were the walls with colorful pictures that the ignorant, deluded, and self-important fawn over. And teach their kids to fawn over. It is a tragedy to keep men looking at the earth when God sits enthroned in heaven.
How'd this come up? I played a game today entitled, "Metroid Zero Mission". Fun game, but it sparked an irritation.
20100522
Quake 2 has one of the best soundtracks. It works well as workout music, too. So much good music is ruined with lyrics (or screaming, or moaning)--especially metal music. But Quake 2 has none. And that's a good thing. Track three is my favorite. Seven is a close second. They're all good--even the slow one (ten). :)
20100521
Woke up from an interesting dream early this morning (0530). It was a good dream: I didn't wake up going "I hope that doesn't happen" or going "I hope that does happen". I simply woke up with a clear conscience, and I could feel through my lips the smiling shape that I was making. I really needed to pee, but the dream feeling overpowered that little bother.
Worked some sound at the homeschooler's graduation, this evening (1800-2030). Was nice; short and sweet. Funny. I like watching people, and it's quite easy to do up in the sound booth. I saw this one old dude strut down the aisle. Hilarious. We never really age. Moods and attitudes, perceptions and dispositions and affinities, come and go--hopefully replaced by better, _real_ ones--but there's something in a man that doesn't grow old. I saw two cute little girls. Precious little things. Hahaha, they were so cute. That made the whole thing worth it tonight--twice. I pray they grow up knowing the Lord personally and intimately. Elle (Elly?) and...Annie? Elle smiled at me, so I liked her more. Petted her head. Hahaha. Shout outs to Seth and Katie. One little dude graduated kindegarten--John--he skipped all over the place. Reminded me of myself. :)
20100521
Phantasy Star 2 was remarkably better than 1. It wasn't necessarily a *fun* game, but it was better. And the music was most certainly better, which made the endurance RPG bearable. Even after hacking my characters to max level immediately after I received them, and never wanting for meseta, the game took too long to beat. But after several (too many) hours of adventuring, PEX and crew defeated Mother Brain (I had to think of Metroid when I read that), and, curiously, the survivors of Earth. Yes, Earth. It was going to be genocide either way. Them Earthlings never learn.
20100520
You're a nation?
Urination?
20100514
Where are you, my friend?
They came and took you away.
Come back, Sebastian!
--Tessie-watcher in Winters
What's thirty minutes? Thirty minutes, to me, is the amount of time I needed to finish beating Mother 2 (otherwise known as Earthbound) ten years ago. I was in Magicant when Windows puked on me and I formatted my hard disk. Ten years later (today, this evening, a moment ago), I beat Mother 2.
You encounter the French Kiss of Death.
No doubt. It's amusing to me that I had to wait ten years to put this ghost to rest. But so be it. She sleeps now, eternally. I will, however, download the soundtrack from the
snes music archive. Haha!
Joshua kept praying.
And playing. I liked Mother (otherwise known as Earthbound Zero) better. There was something spooky about it. And the music is much more memorable, to me. And the cutscene in the cabin on Mount Itoi is something I won't soon forget. The one in the club is a close second. Mother 2 had prettier graphics, sure...but it just didn't touch me the same way.
Touch.
20100513
When on your way out
Be sure that you say goodbye
then lock the door tight
--Everdred
After all, it could only cost your life, and you got that for free!
--sailor in Summers
20100511
You know your Internet connection sucks when you can find a term in a paper dictionary faster than the web page will load
...Hehe.
You know your computer sucks when you can look up the correct spelling of a word in a paper dictionary faster than Microsoft Word can suggest the proper spelling. That happened in my tenth grade Business 1 class, one morning. Chris Snowden can testify to it. :P
20100508

Does anyone else find this picture suspicious? I mean, seriously?
Was walking with the neighbor, today, and stopped by the wayside for some honeysuckle nectar. Simple pleasures. :)
20100501

I realized that I haven't posted a picture on here in a while. That there is some pretty bread I just baked. Mmm. Used a whole wheat starter that I've been cultivating for a month. I don't know how many generations of little yeastlings have flourished and prospered under my care. One of the few creatures that I appreciate pooping so much.
I have ROBO's theme from Chronotrigger playing in my head.
20100429
It is in times like this that I soooo miss high school. Actually, it is ONLY in times like this that I miss high school. High school sucked. It was the necessary low spot in my life so that in everything after, I could look up. It was because high school was so sucky that I can give the Lord what is due Him, that is all glory.
About high school, though--desks. Single piece, plastic backed, back popping desks. Every morning I did my back cracking routine that relieved what the aforementioned unreasonably loaded backpack encouraged. I want one of those desks. Right now, though, I'd settle for a cracked back. I can get my lower back pretty good, but this one's right between my shoulder blades and I haven't a clue how to get at it. Dude, my dad's so good at squeezing me to accomplish this. Even had my sister walk on my back. She's afraid she'd hurt me. Even had her bounce a bit and I kept waiting for that POP. Man, I wanted that CRACK. It feels a little better, but not what I wanted.
In other news, it's not even May and I've already reached the file size of last year's (my largest year) log: 51 kb. And I have another web log besides this one. This year must be the year for writing.
20100429
Sister: Yeaaaaaaarh! Man sink!
Brother: Man sink?
Sister: The rest of the house is spotless, but this sink is disgusting!
20100428
I put forty-five pounds of sand in a backpack to intensify my pushups (it did). Walking back to the house with it on my back, it reminded me of my high school days. Dude, I know I had to have been carrying at least thirty pounds of books on my back every day.
20100427
I don't like pets, Sam I am. I don't like pets.
20100426
Homemade noodles are the best. They also came out more uniformly and didn't stick together this (second) time. :D
20100426
I don't know how many times I've seen my reflection in the water in the toilet bowl (many is a good start), but today...today, it was particularly amusing.
20100424
A perk of being home alone? Running around in your underwear all day. Better than that? Running around outside and then realizing that you're running around in your underwear. Thankfully, I haven't went grocery shopping in my underwear, yet. :d
20100423
I just realized how much of a music man I am, as contrasted to a lyrics man. I was thinking hard for the lyrics of "Unchained Melody" but I plain could not remember them. The only thing I could remember was "your touch", which I thought was amusing, which is why I wanted to use it in my other
web log. I could whistle the tune (as covered by the "Righteous Brothers") all day, but I plain couldn't remember the words to the song. Thankfully, it all started coming back to me on the toilet. Hahahaha.
20100422
Doing something different, this time. Only because it has a specific focus and only because I never have or intend to make superjoshua.com commentable (I might make some kind of feed, but that's a "might" and it's not a "today" :P). It's a
web log on blogger.com.
20100422
You want to learn to draw better, but you're embarrassed to draw other people naked. What do you do? Draw pictures of yourself, of course! Fully posable, too! Models usually get pretty upset when you go grabbing on them (go figure). :P
20100422
Hair of the dog. I don't know about alcohol, but it works that way with music. :)
20100422
So I went to the bathroom and forgot to close the door. Sitting on the pot, the cat came strolling in to take a drink from the leaky tub faucet. "Well, I suppose that's fair," I thought to myself. "I've walked in on you enough." :P
20100422
We must build our faith, not on the fading light, but on the light that never fails. (http://www.myutmost.org/04/0422.html)
20100422
Huh-oh. Engines failing. I think I saw this crash coming. Come back here, sweet bed o' mine. :D
20100422
Early morning for me, today. 0400. Went to bed at 2300. Not quite enough sleep in my opinion, but I'm wide awake. Something I saw last night; something I read. I wonder if I let things get to me.
So, I got to do what I haven't done in a long time. Went outside and stared into the beautiful morning sky. I wish I was this alert when I went to high school. Not that I want to relive those days. *shudders* Nope, those are graves that I don't care to walk back by.
It's so beautiful staring up into God's creation, forgetting the names of the constellations and all the knowledge man thinks he has about the stars. I stand in awe. All these people that hope in other worlds and space aliens and question life and why--I already know the Truth, and I have perfect confidence. And I share this confidence with others, Who He is, but they don't listen. Funny, I read something else last night: "Entrance into the Kingdom is by invitation only." And that's the truth. The Lord knows what He is doing; I make no excuses for Him. Yes, come Lord Jesus.
And the cat jumps on my monitor. Well, cat, look at all the extra licking time you get to enjoy, today.
Hey, my abs are looking pretty good in this light. Shadows cast by computer light. Benefit, if you will, of having a large mirror directly in front of my computer. I get to make faces at myself all day. Simple things.
Oh well, guess I'll catch up on some studying I've been neglecting. :)
Dude, as far as I can tell, I haven't made one spelling error. I certainly must be alert this morning. :D
20100421
I enjoy singing poorly in the shower. It usually involves many high pitched bits. It amuses me greatly--especially the squealing. The passerby would think me a loon. Hahahahah. :D
20100416
Behold, the Lord God will help Me; who is he who will condemn Me? Behold, they all will wax old and be worn out as a garment; the moth will eat them up. Who is among you who fears the Lord, who obeys the voice of His Servant, yet who walks in darkness and deep trouble and has no shining splendor? Let him rely on, trust in, and be confident in the name of the Lord, and let him lean upon and be supported by his God. Behold, all you who attempt to kindle your own fires, who surround and gird yourselves with momentary sparks, darts, and firebrands that you set aflame!--walk by the light of your self-made fire and of the sparks that you have kindled! But this shall you have from My hand: you shall lie down in grief and in torment. (Isaiah 50:9-11)
20100416
And those who passed by spoke reproachfully and abusively and jeered at Him, wagging their heads, and they said, "You Who would tear down the sanctuary of the temple and rebuild it in three days, rescue Yourself from death. If You are the Son of God, come down from the cross. (Matthew 27:39-40)
Because He is the Son of God, He couldn't come down from the cross. Everyone was blind; not a single person understood, not family, stranger, or disciple--like the Scripture says, "Who has believed our message? (Isaiah 53:1)" That's why so few of us understand now, because in order to come near Him, we must repent for how stupid and selfish and blind we really are.
The next day, that is, the day after the day of Preparation, the chief priests and the Pharisees assembled before Pilate and said, "Sir, we have just remembered how that vagabond Imposter said while He was still alive, 'After three days I will rise again.' Therefore give an order to have the tomb made secure and safeguarded until the third day, for fear that His disciples will come and steal Him away and tell the people that He has risen from the dead, and the last deception and fraud will be worse than the first. (Matthew 27:62-64)
Funny how His enemies remembered His words quicker than His own disciples.
20100409
Mmmmm. I sure do like Josh's Rice Soup. Josh's Rice Soup is the best rice soup I've ever eaten. I've had many bowels of Josh's Rice Soup and I can well say that I've enjoyed every one of them. :d
20100405
So I was just outside practicing GMAW for an hour when I decided to come in and knead some dough. That's a hilariously wide range of activities. I hope the bread comes out better than the welds, that's for sure. Haha.
Changing hosts is a bit of a nuisance, but I like these
Just Host guys. Their customer support really kicks ass. They're also priced very well.
The bread turned out much better than the welds. :) First time I actually cultivated a little yeast farm. They've been living off of whole wheat for a few days. There's too many for me to name, and it wouldn't be worth it anyways, since I'm raising them to eat. I've read it's better not to name something you're going to eat (especially if you kill it yourself).
20100401
Cut my hair again, today. Got it a lot straighter this time, too. Good. Improvement is a good thing. :D
Happy Birthday, dad. The big 50.
20100330
Today was a superb and interesting day. And instead of my usual narrative style, I'm just going to say this for my neighbors:
Steve, Linda, and Allen Bolen, the Lord bless and enlarge you, for you proved yourselves true neighbors today. Praise the Lord!
20100329
Congratulations. Just now, making myself a happy bowl of evening cereal, I grabbed the cinnamon, as I always do, to shake a little extra into my cereal. Only the cinnamon, this time, was my jalapeno pepper spice, instead. I realized this after I dumped about a teaspoon of it into my bowl. Now, I wasn't about to waste a couple cups of cereal and a cup of milk on this blunder, so I went ahead and added the cinnamon (actual cinnamon, this time) and set out to eat it.
Spicy, to say the least. :d
20100326
I just caught myself calling myself Uncle Josh while I was using the bathroom. No, I'm not an uncle, yet--as in my sister does not have any human children, yet.
But still... Uncle Josh. Yikes.
I remember when I was 21-- I was running sound for a wedding. After practice, the bride's mother invited me to eat with them that evening. So, I did. Some barbeque joint named Antley's. Anyway, I was sitting at table with two of the groomsmen and a bridesmaid, and during the course of the conversation (as in, when I was addressed directly), feeling quite out of place (I didn't know any of them), I kept calling the dude "Sir". After half a dozen-or-so replies, the dude asked me, "How old are you?" "Twenty-one," I replied. "Dude, I'm 23, we're peers. Stop calling me sir," he protested, good-humored. Personally, I think he was just anxious about the title. Personally, I understand. :d
20100323
I'm usually always a little surprised when I see what my face actually looks like after shaving it. I usually only shave it once a month. :P
20100318
(http://www.myutmost.org/03/0318.html)
Is God getting His way with me, and are other people beginning to see God in my life more and more? Be serious with God and leave the rest gaily alone. Put God first literally.
20100311

It's ten at night and you're the only one in the house: what DO you DO? Well, I baked cookies. :d What kind of cookies, you ask? Why experimental cookies, of course! :D What's experimental about them, you ask? Not a whole lot really. Firstly, I have arguably zip experience with cookies. Secondly, I didn't use a recipe--I just did what "felt" good. Yes, I did measure the ingredients. You know, in case they turned out okay (they did), and I wanted to make them again (I might). Basically, though, it was just chocolate chip dough rolled in oats, substituting olive oil for butter. Extra virgin. Really. Personally, I think they turned out right nice. Pretty, too. They taste like chocolate, but it's not overbearing. You'd have to try them to understand, though. Bwa hahahahaha. :P :)
20100311
After hours of deliberation, I have come to the honest conclusion that French is much easier to speaking with my mouth full of food. That probably means something.
20100310
2010.8.2
Joe
I just beat Bionic Commando for the NES. I would have beat it ten years ago had it not glitched. I didn't feel like resetting the system and starting over, and so I set it down...until today. Funny, that date's not too long from now. I wonder if some BC fans are going to celebrate on that day. :)
20100308
A couple months ago, a customer of my dad's brought his kid with him to my dad's shop. It just happened to be the kid's birthday that day, and he had just happened to turn four. After a while of looking at me, the brat said to me, "Why do you look like a girl?" To which I responded, giving my chin a stroke of my hand, "Your mom have a beard, too?"
20100308
19.7 miles.
As an interesting aside, did you know that if you shift your right hand one to the left and type "miles" you get "nukes"? Well, it amused me anyway.
I believe March is my favorite month here, in South Carolina. There's something so beautiful about the skies this time of year. Especially today. Today was particularly beautiful. Pretty blue. Not a cloud in the sky. And the temperature was perfect for riding. I hadn't ridden my bike in three months; today, I rode my bike.
I opened up Google maps to chart myself somewhere unexplored, and took off at 1600. It all started with familiar roads. Till to left onto Gramling. However, instead of turning left onto Sleepy Hollow like I've done several times before, I turned left onto Gin Bay just before it.
I've been down this road before, but coming from the other direction, and that was a year ago (or so). I didn't see any bays, but it did smell like alcohol on that road. Not gin though--more like moonshine. Anyway... :P Near the end of the road, a good hundred pine trees that were recently growing along the side of the road were all broken off at the base and lying on top of each other--like some massive wind blew them all over. No such wind happened that I'm aware of, and I'm not sure why whoever owned the trees would do that. Weird.
Gin Bay runs straight into Mount Lebanon. At the end of Mount Lebanon is Old State Road--a road I've never crossed before. My journey into the unexplored began on Haigler Circle, just across (and a little to the left of) Old State. This is where the the most notable event of the ride happened. After following the circle around, I was on a collision course with Saint John. I steadily approached a car that was parked on the side of the road at the intersection of Haigler Circle and Saint John Road. Drawing closer, I saw that a graveyard rested on both this and that side of Saint John. Looking into the graveyard on this side I saw a man and a woman embracing each other standing in front of a grave. And then I heard. The man was wailing loudly. It's pretty heart-wrenching when you hear a man mourn like that--especially the particularly large man that he was with the particularly large voice that he had.
Turning right on Saint John and driving on a little farther, I saw a solitary turkey vulture nibbling on a squirrel that seemed to have lost a game of chicken with an automobile. Then they asked Him, Where, Lord? He said to them, Wherever the dead body is, there will the vultures or eagles be gathered together (Luke 17:37 AMP).
Right onto Winding Brook. No doubt. I saw a lot of cute ponds and streams, and I could hear them flowing like little waterfalls at some points. :)
Left onto Jericho. Remarkably uninteresting road.
Continue onto Browns Chapel. Similarly uninteresting. I didn't see a chapel, either--maybe I turned too soon to see it, though. :d
Left onto Cardinal. A short road which lead me to... Right onto Midway. Yes. Cardinal led me right into the heart of the bustling metropolis that is Midway. No, it's not really a bustling metropolis. In fact, I'm not even sure why it got a special name on the map. I do know, though, as I traveled down it I saw remnants of a car wreck scattered some hundred feet in length along the side of the road. Something went down there, for sure.
Right onto Old State. Yeap, that road should sound familiar. It was fun coming onto this road, too, because it was on a decline and I didn't stop at the stop sign; so I took a ninety going twenty miles an hour, or so. Yes, I looked both ways, but why waste the moment(um)? :D I stayed on this road long enough (about 100 feet) to turn left onto Four Holes.
The rest of these roads are familiar. I haven't, however, been this far over on this road, before, and I got to see an interesting looking house, with a pretty entrance.
Right onto Till. Wheee. I got to go down my hill again. :) 1.5 hours. The End.
20100304
Mark 14
and the chief priests and scribes were all the while seeking to arrest Him by secrecy and deceit and put Him to death (verse 1)
The holy men of the day, those that guarded the sacred Scripture, descendants of those to whom the Law was given...willfully breaking it. Nothing's changed.
and she broke the jar and poured it over His head (verse 3)
This woman performed one of the truest acts of love in the whole of the Bible. She broke the jar and poured it on Jesus just as the Father broke His Son and poured Him on the world.
To what purpose was the ointment thus wasted? (verse 4)
They showed they depth of their ignorance--their arrogance--when they accused her for wasting the perfume. Did the Father waste the Son on the world which He loved (John 3:16)?
And they censured and reproved her (verse 5)
They reproved her, but they failed to reprove themselves. They wanted her to give to the poor; they had no intention of doing such a thing. Such keen perception we have to realize how others could be better but fail to do better ourselves.
And surely I tell you, wherever the good news is proclaimed in the entire world, what she has done will be told in memory of her (verse 9)
Two thousand years and going strong.
Then Judas, who was one of the Twelve, went off to the chief priests in order to betray and hand Him over to them (verse 10)
And one of the closest men in His life betrays His life. Tell me how the Word of God isn't relevant, you fools. This IS Today.
20100303
I've realized that the length of the shower is directly proportional to the amount of hot water available.
more hot water = longer shower
Not really a eureka moment, but the reality becomes very apparent when the water starts to get cold. :D
20100302
And Jesus, replying, said to them, Have faith in God. (Mark 11:22)
One day, I was in church talking to a dude. He said to me, "You don't actually think you can (it's possible) to move mountains, do you? I don't think it's possible."
I said to him, smiling, "Well, I do know that as long as you think like that, you won't."
He smiled.
Jesus was not being figurative when he cursed the fig tree--why would He be being figurative about the mountain? He spoke all creation into existence!
I absolutely hate the lairs in the church today that say the Bible is of no relevance. Jesus IS the Word of God (John 1:1)--He is always relevant. They are a cancer that needs to be exposed and burned and cut out, constantly perverting the way and congratulating every abomination. They will not go unpunished.
However, when the Son of Man comes, will He find faith on the earth? (Luke 18:8)
20100301
Buried a peacock this afternoon. Dead, of course; not alive. I only bury people alive.
20100301
(http://www.myutmost.org/03/0301.html)
Unless we get hurt right out of every deception about ourselves, the word of God is not having its way with us.
Mark 10:36,51 AMP
And He replied to them, What do you desire Me to do for you?
And Jesus said to him, What do you want Me to do for you?
Humble.
20100228
Mark 9:36-37 AMP
He took a little child and put him in the center of their group; and taking him in [His] arms, He said to them,
Whoever in My name and for My sake accepts and receives and welcomes one such child also accepts and receives and welcomes Me; and whoever so receives Me receives not only Me but Him Who sent Me.
A child...wrapped in the arms of Christ. Did he even know Who was holding him? ...Did he even need to? The Lord said that he who loves Him, obeys His commands (John 15). But it's not love if we're conscious about it. Being self-conscious is the antipode of knowing Him.
20100227
Roll 'em big
Smoke 'em slow
Make sure you wear sunglasses
So the boss won't know
Ah, the bathroom poet. He amuses me. :p
20100227

Whatthecrap. "Use hotkeys! Be efficient!" I convinced myself. Friends, countrymen, Americans--I am not, nor was I ever, in the least bit confused about how many strokes that character has. Hahahahaha.
20100227

That, ladies and gentlemen, is an opossum. A very peaceful looking opossum. A very peaceful looking opossum sleeping...in my sister's bird shed. Hahahahaha. No birds, opossums, or Joshua's were harmed in the making of this picture.
20100227
(http://www.myutmost.org/02/0227.html)
"We impoverish His ministry the moment we forget He is Almighty. We will come to Jesus as Comforter or as Sympathizer, but we will not come to Him as Almighty."
"The reason some of us are such poor specimens of Christianity is because we have no Almighty Christ."
"The well of your incompleteness is deep, but make the effort and look away to Him."
Amen. Hahaha. What a rebuke to everything human. Praise the Lord.
Isaiah 55:1-3, 8-9, 11 AMP
Wait and listen, everyone who is thirsty! Come to the waters; and he who has no money, come, buy and eat! Yes, come, buy [priceless, spiritual] wine and milk without money and without price [simply for the self-surrender that accepts the blessing].
Why do you spend your money for that which is not bread, and your earnings for what does not satisfy? Hearken diligently to Me, and eat what is good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness [the profuseness of spiritual joy].
Incline your ear [submit and consent to the divine will] and come to Me; hear, and your soul will revive; and I will make an everlasting covenant or league with you, even the sure mercy (kindness, goodwill, and compassion) promised to David.
For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, says the Lord.
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts.
So shall My word be that goes forth out of My mouth: it shall not return to Me void [without producing any effect, useless], but it shall accomplish that which I please and purpose, and it shall prosper in the thing for which I sent it.
Best way to start a day. :) (Psalms 1)
20100225
Dude, that's wild. It looks like I have a musical "period". Yeah, like the girly menstruation thing. Looking at the dates I've recorded stuff to my computer, something has consistently been recorded around this time every month for the past four years. Hahahaha. This amuses me, for sure. I mean, it doesn't *only* happen around this time every month, but that fact that it *does* happen around this time every month, without conscious effort, is interesting.
20100224
Happy Birthday, Edryanne Low Wai Chi. The Lord bless you.
"I could wish myself were accursed from Christ for my brethren"--wild, extravagant--is it? When a man is in love it is not an exaggeration to talk in that way, and Paul is in love with Jesus Christ.
(http://www.myutmost.org/02/0224.html
Hahaha. I found myself counting in Spanish while I was doing pushups this afternoon. Unintentionally. I just went with it. :d
20100223
Weird. Ass. Dream.
But, boy, wasn't today beautiful. Wow. I mean, the day was beautiful. It felt good just sitting out in the sun, on the front porch, doing a little sculpting (which I broke, unintentionally). Just soaking up the rays, a fine break from the previous winter days.
Matthew 27:30 "And they spat on Him, and took the reed and struck Him on the head."
Men. Striking the Lord God Almighty. It amazes me every time I read it. How many of us strike our own parents? And here, men strike the Lamb of God--the very same thing we do every time we assert ourselves. To strike God... That's certainly something to wrap your head around.
20100222
I hate being the executioner.
But mercy often has an unpleasant exterior.
The Lord Jesus Christ didn't build homes for the poor or invent some life-extending medicine. He died. He died--that we might live.
I think about how it's written in the prophets: "The burden of". Who in their right mind would want to prophesy these things? But some things have to be done.
20100219
The cattle are lowing
No doubt
I wonder what it's all about
At twenty-one hundred hours
Ah, I just realized that I had left my window open. No wonder I heard them so clearly. :)
20100213
It's a beautiful morning. Haha. It's like it's a special occasion. Well, by definition, I suppose it is. :P Funny, too--a kid at church Thursday said he prayed for snow for his birthday. Looks like he received it. :) Reminds me of a line I read in a devotional recently: "Only a child gets prayer answered; a wise man does not (http://www.myutmost.org/10/1017.html)" Praise the Lord. :) All four of us took some more pictures this morning; I'll go through them later to see if I like any of them.
Heh... "Come to me, all you who are overburdened... Take My yoke upon you... For My yoke is wholesome, and My burden is light (Matthew 11:28-30)." That's what the Lord Jesus, Son of God, Who became flesh says. What does that mean? Sounds pretty clear to me. If you are depressed, it is not of God. Self pity is always evil.
20100212
It snowed today--first time in four years. Started coming down around 1500, I think. I wasn't paying much attention, you see, I was trying to find my tribe that had been kidnapped. Even though I knew where they were--I've already saved them before (Fallout 2). :P Hahaha. So mom comes into my room, "Did you know it's snowing?!" No, of course, I didn't, I already told you I had other things requiring my attention. So, I gave my cranium a ninety to the right (to look out my window), smiled, and gave a "Ha-hah!" It was most certainly snowing. :) Much more than last time I saw it here, too. Stuff packs real nice, too. Oh, but where are my manners--how about some pictures? Su, I thought of you especially when I took these.
I took these from my room window--it points generally west-ish. Boy, the cedar certainly looks Christmas-y, doesn't it?
These from the bathroom window--the opposite side of the house. The little shed is where my sisters birds sleep...and possibly shiver. :P
Grabbed these from the entrance of the house--points north-ish. Yes, my dad IS a mechanic. Hahaha.
I had to make a snowman to commemorate the occasion, you know. :D
Caught these guys having a party on the van, later. Ice, ice, baby. :d
I even made a snowball and put it in the freezer. I figure I'll take it out and cream my sister with it when she gets home from work. I plan on calling her "Susie Derkins" first, though. Who's that? Haven't you ever read Calvin and Hobbes? Heathens. :D
20100210
"Josh, when you get the time, will you set that clock?"
So, I set the clock. Then, I went into my room...and I smiled. Haha. "When you 'get the time.'" Dad was saying, "when you have leisure", which is how I took it, even though he didn't really mean that, which I understood. "Josh, set the clock." But--just but--when I entered my room, it hit me: "when you figure out what time it is (*get* the time)". Haha. Again, not what he said or I thought, but what amused me afterward. :)
20100125
What time is it, again? Why, it's time for Joshua's SODA REVIEWWWWW! On today's episode, I have selected four--count 'em: one, two, three, four--carbonated beverages that yours truly has sampled recently. I have even ranked them from most to least liked. Yay. Yes, I grabbed all these from Big Lots!, again. :)

Starting from the left, the tastiest. Steaz Organic Sparkling Green Tea Orange. Possibly the best tasting soda I've ever laid lips on. It also rivals Hansen's Natural Green Tea Soda Pomegranate in the name length category. Hahaha. There were actually several flavors there, but orange was the first one I saw, and since none of the others made sufficient argument to be tried first instead, I stayed with my first. Glad I did. :)
Izze Sparkling Grapefruit. Dad actually picked this one out. Another winner. It smells and tastes like grapefruit. Which is good, since it says "sparkling *grapefruit*". :P Kind of interestingly bitter like the previously mentioned Hansen's. I'd certainly drink it again.
Mediocre. That's the word for Fizz Ed Green Apple. Especially since it doesn't taste a thing like green apple. It tastes like grape. Probably because it also has grape juice in it, among other things. Cheap. Cheeeeeeap (as in quality, not price).
And... Izze Sparkling Pomegranate. Yuck. This was actually picked out by mistake. Thinking to get some more of the yummy grapefruit, this was selected unintentionally (seriously, look at the difference [lack of] in packaging). It smelt terrible on top of tasting nasty. And flat. Oh, it was carbonated, but it *tasted* flat. And it also didn't taste like pomegranate. Why? Looking at the ingredients, they were nearly identical to the so called "green apple" ingredients. Same company, too: Ball. Where did pomegranate juice fall in the list? Second to last, right above acerola. Which I'm sure wasn't much.
The top two were definitely wins (especially Steaz OSGTO); the latter two were most definitely fails (ESPECIALLY Izze Sparkling "Pomegranate").
Wow...I've already written more than I did in 2006 (9k vs 11k), and it's still January. Hahaha. :)
20100121
Frog #2 successfully rehabilitated. :D
20100121
So I'm in my room, fresh out of the shower--still naked mind you--belting out this huge solo, when I glance at myself in the mirror and stop, thinking, "The house is empty, right?" :D
20100121

Ten points to whoever correctly guesses what this is. :d
20100120
Behold, I send you out like lambs into the midst of wolves (Luke 10:3).
And how many of us start complaining when things get difficult? Yes, the Lord knowingly and purposely put you in dire circumstances. Learn to trust Him in spite of your circumstances. Praise the Lord!
20100113
My soul, wait only upon God and silently submit to Him; for my hope and expectation are from Him. (Psalms 62:5 AMP)
20100113
- Urinate.
^ Urinate? Here?
- YOU'RE an EIGHT.
^ Oh.
20100113
Another dream about that girl. Wild.
20100110
A quarter of a century. Weee. Hahaha. Praise the Lord! :D Even got a call from my buddy, Liang Zhang Long, today. :) The Lord bless you, buddy. Praise the Lord. :)
20100108
Funny how a dream can change your perception of a person. Or...maybe it just tells you what you're really thinking. Had a dream about a pretty girl last night. A pretty girl...that I thought was kind of a snot. But she was hilarious in my dream, and wonderfully friendly. Our class had just graduated from something, and walking beside her to the reception to eat, she picked me up by one arm and kept walking. Not really "swept off my feet", but it's the general idea, I think. :D
At the same time, I think it's unfortunate when a person reminds you of another person. Kind of cheapens it.
20100108
Hosea 6:1,3
Come and let us return to the Lord, for He has torn so that He may heal us; He has stricken so that He may bind us up. Yes, let us know Him; let us be zealous to know the Lord.
20100107

Hahaha. Today is my old friend's birthday. What's a better present than an old memory, right? A lot of things? Sure...probably. But this will have to do, this time. :) Happy birthday, man.
Man, if this didn't have a heavy Final Fantasy influence... So what do you think of the emblem of your kingdom? A little bizarre. Not exactly sure what I was thinking, at the time. :D And "infinate" gold. That must be nice. You must just make it like a certain government, or something. :P I didn't dig around to find a picture of your wife: "Warrior Woman". Which is probably good, because I drew her even more poorly than you! :D Hahaha.
The Lord bless you on your birthday, Derrick.
20100105

Some of my favorite pictures--especially the latter one. I put these in the Scrapbook.
The first one even had the date on the back: 20030716 (although I wrote it like this at the time: 7.16.2003). I drew this one Wednesday or Sunday night, at church, with the kids. I love the smell of crayons--especially a freshly opened box of Crayolas. Sssssss. Ahhhhh... Really, one of my certain enjoyments. Reminds me of elementary school and the day of shopping before each grade, getting all our school supplies. Fond memories, very fond memories. The name of the picture is "Moonglow", after the name of the specialty crayon in the box that night that inspired the drawing. The crayon used to be florescent, and glowed softly in the light. However, that positive effect has long faded. I really enjoyed looking at it in the parking lot that night, though.
The second one was drew in the midst of a game of Pictionary. I think I nabbed the card "employee". That picture's what came out of my head and hand. I supremely like it, too. :D
Funny, two posts and this year's log is already half the file size of 2007. Hahahaha.
20100105
All our vows and resolutions end in denial because we have no power to carry them out.
(http://www.myutmost.org/01/0105.html)
New year, new page. Weee. :P :)
No matter what changes God has wrought in you, never rely upon them, build only on a Person, the Lord Jeus Christ, and on the Spirit He gives.
(same)